Monday, August 06, 2007
...
the words i'd been dreading to hear.
the words i'd hoped were only a result of my own insecurity.
but,
things will never be the same again.
things can never be the same again.
i destroyed the one thing i never wanted to destroy.
i drove the one person i never wanted to away.
i feel horrid.
i am horrid.
i thought i loved you as much as you did.
but i never tried to understand.
or at least i tried.
but still never understood.
you were right.
i judged.
n i hated him.
for hurting you.
i didnt know how to deal with pain.
so i transformed it into hate.
im sorry.
my love for you, i showed it all wrong.
i never felt more alone in my entire life.
as if a wall i never imagined existed now stands between us.
a world i can now only look in from outside.
i wish i can turn back time.
right everything i did wrong.
but time stands solid.
like the wall that now stands.
one i cant see, but i can feel.
the wrong that i shall live to regret.
i cant go back.
i can only wait for time to heal.
...
-bu-
7:03 PM